My Confession

Christ has opened my eyes fully recently, and I want to share with you the journey to the light and ask for your forgiveness.

As you should all know, I am not a Seminary-trained theologian.

Hallelujah!!!!

However, through careful and sometimes detailed study of the Bible including original language word studies, and input from many Christian authors and content creators (some get it right, but most get something wrong), YAH has developed my natural gift of searching for truth in an opinionated world. This journey commenced nearly seven years ago when Christ arrested me after my almost 30-year journey as a Christian.

I was at my lowest point spiritually. I was driving for Uber and had not mentioned Christ to anyone in 8,500 trips. I was still grasping at Satan-inspired shiny objects trying to get rich quickly, a direct result of my childhood under a drunkard Dad producing ADD syndrome behavior. This behavior led me to bankruptcy in the GFC of 2009 as I grasped at an over-indulgent life that I had not earned.

I could quote Proverbs 3:5-6 verbatim, as well as Revelation 3:20.

Do you think I could live this reality?

Not a chance.

I was deceived.

The prosperity gospel had me hooked.

Have your best life today……Christ wants this for you! Bla! Bla!

I became a truck driver with lots of solitary time, a massive blessing for one with renewed spiritual ears to hear. Christ has revealed during this refreshing of faith that I was not truly saved in the first place. I had said the sinners’ prayer and been baptized, but my life had not changed, except I did not swear as much. I attended church weekly, regular Bible study home groups, and so on, but had never exchanged my life for His. I was called, but still unregenerate. I was still about me. Remember the Parable of the Seeds and the Sower; those seeds that fell in the thorns were where the cares of this life choke the Word?

That was me!

Knowing OF Christ, but not knowing the indwelling Christ of true repentance and living FROM Christ.

Many guests were invited to the Parable of the Wedding Feast in Matthew 22, but few attended. So the King ordered his slaves to go into the streets and invite anyone they could find. But a man turned up without proper wedding attire and the King ordered him to be thrown out.

Why am I telling you this?

The initial invitees represent Israel, whose king is YAH. Israel was invited but declined because it had better things to do. Those from the streets were the Gentiles, those that Israel was supposed to invite to the wedding feast of the King, but were too aloof to do so. The person who turned up unclothed for weddings represents those who are called, but unchosen due to their preference for the world. This is a BIG parable spiritually. It is prophetic of both Israel and Gentiles.

But YAH is gracious beyond measure to those He knows.

What do I mean by knows?

Isaiah 46:10 LEB  who from the beginning declares the end, and from before, things that have not been done, who says, 'My plan shall stand,' and, 'I will accomplish all my wishes,'

This was a key revelation YAH provided for me. YAH knows how your life ends spiritually before you are even born. It made sense of a key passage I could never understand.

Malachi 1:2-3 LEB  "I have loved you," says Yahweh, but you say, "How have you loved us?""Is Esau not Jacob's brother?" declares Yahweh. "I have loved Jacob,  (3)  but Esau I have hated. I have made his mountain ranges a desolation, and given his inheritance to the jackals of the desert."

YAH knew how Esau’s life was to end spiritually, an enemy of YAH. This was known before Esau was born.

Who engineered the deception by Jacob of Esau to trade his birthright as the first-born son (twin) of Isaac (the son of Abraham) and Rachel?

YAH!

Jacob was renamed Israel. He had 12 sons, the twelve tribes of Israel, the pure bloodline Hebrews, ready to fulfill the Abrahamic Covenant. Jacob’s elder brother became the leader of the Edomites, one of Israel’s many enemies.

For those of us foreknown by YAH, the overcomers of Revelation 2-3, when we truly understand the spiritual truth of the indwelling Christ, we live a life of repentance moving towards YAH. We are pre-destined to spiritual authenticity through sanctification (by being conformed to the image of his Son), the process of being set apart for YAH’s work.

This is when we truly know the will of YAH for our life.

Romans 8:28-30 LEB  And we know that all things work together for good for those who love God, for those who are called according to his purpose,  (29)  because those whom he foreknew, he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, so that he should be the firstborn among many brothers.  (30)  And those whom he predestined, these he also called, and those whom he called, these he also justified, and those whom he justified, these he also glorified.

I know many Christians that glaze over when I talk about this. Many are closet Calvinists who believe that YAH sovereignly decides who is in and who is out. Many believe only in half the gospel, that YAH is love, but forget about His justice.

I found quickly that Yahusha meant what He said when He remarked “The path to salvation is narrow and few find it” in Matthew 7. He was talking to believers when He said this. Many of my “church friends”, even those we have shared life with for many years, started leaving us out of social functions to save the possibility of friction. We became lepers in our colony of prosperity protagonists. This caused much marriage friction as well as I tried to negotiate an inverted world of female-dominated marriages and emasculated manhood. My wife prayed for years for my redemption.

Be careful what you pray for women of Christ!

Early in my refreshing, I discovered the mystery of Yahusha cursing the barren fig tree in Matthew 21:19 and Mark 11;14, where He passed by the tree and cursed it because it should have been in season but it bore no fruit. After digging into the Old Testament, I found the fig tree was often a typology of YAH’s protective covenant (the Abrahamic Covenant) on pure bloodline Hebrews (Israel). Verses like:

1 Kings 4:24-25 LEB  For he was ruling over all the west of the River from Tiphsah up to Gaza, over all the kings west of the River; and he had peace from every side all around.  (25)  Judah and Israel lived in security, each man under his vine and under his fig tree, from Dan as far as Beersheba, all the days of Solomon.

John 1:47-51 LEB  Jesus saw Nathanael coming toward him and said about him, "Look! A true Israelite in whom is no deceit!"  (48)  Nathanael said to him, "From where do you know me?" Jesus answered and said to him, "Before Philip called you, when you were under the fig tree, I saw you."  (49)  Nathanael answered him, "Rabbi, you are the Son of God! You are the king of Israel!"  (50)  Jesus answered and said to him, "Because I said to you that I saw you under the fig tree, do you believe? You will see greater things than these!"  (51)  And he said to him, "Truly, truly I say to all of you, you will see heaven opened and the angels of God ascending and descending upon the Son of Man."

Even at creation, when Adam and Eve took the forbidden fruit and their worldly eyes were opened, they sowed fig leaves to cover their nakedness. This typology runs right through the scriptures. The fig leaves were a forerunner to the Abrahamic Covenant, prophesying that these two disobedient ones would be the seed of ALL mankind, especially the future pure bloodline.

This truth, that Yahusha was showing that the protection of the pure bloodline Hebrew was over by cursing the fig tree (also read Isaiah 5 and Deuteronomy 28), lasted with me for a while. But Satan had another shining object for me to follow, that of the Dispensational view of Eschatology. This scriptural interpretation view of End Times posits that the 70th Week of the Daniel 9 prophecy is yet unfulfilled, thus indicating YAH is not finished with Israel. Commencing from the First Horseman in Chapter 6 of Revelation, YAH will address Israel only as the “Church” mentioned many times in Chapters 1-3, is raptured to Heaven to be with Christ before the end.

Dispensationalism is a battle-hardened tank in modern Evangelical Christian circles, resurrected by the Jesuits (an arm of the Roman Catholic Church) in the 18th Century to discredit the Reformationist (incorrect) view that the Church had replaced Israel. Martin Luther and John Calvin were ex-Catholics, unable to break completely from the hold of “doing” rather than “being” (see the Letter to Sardis in Revelation 3).

Christ replaces Israel, not the Institutional Church. The Institutionalized Church, inspired by the Roman Catholic Church, is a compromised self-indulgent anti-christ spirit. Anything you esteem between yourself and Christ is not of Christ.

YAH has no partiality in the New Covenant Church (the body of true believers). Jew or Greek, we are ALL the same now under the indwelling Grace. We are Ambassadors for Christ, nothing else. Christ plus ZERO.

This article is my confession to my subscribers of being wooed by the doctrines of men. I am sorry that I have been a deceiver, a part of Satan’s plan to distract from the truth of the New Covenant. I seek your forgiveness for being weak.

As of today, no more weakness!

My mission under Christ is simple.

Teach the good news!

Time is running out.

I have much more to say on this, so stay tuned!

Your Kingdom Priest (Rev 1:6)